Sunny.

Today is a real long day. Lesson until 5pm. Whole day never eat anything. No appetite at all. Been thinking of her. In the end gastric super pain. But there's nothing I can do. sigh. CA is just one week away. I don't think I'm going to make it. I'm going to flunk for sure. How I wish she's here to encourage me. Her presence is all I need.

After school 5pm. Gastric still super pain. Walked to her house upon reaching pasir ris. The journey seem so long. Then sat at her house downstairs and write a letter to her. Write for quite long. Cause gastric very pain. Then stopped writing quite a few times. In the end write le. Then put it inside the envelope that I sealed last night. Then the envelope got tear abit. Sorry baby. But that does not mean I'm not sincere. I am sincere. Back to the story. I went up to her place. Put the envelope under her door there. The small little gap. At first put le then go. Then walk want reach the lift le. Then think what if later put there the door can't open from inside. Then I went back and place it to the side that won't get in the way of the door. Then left. I'm so afraid that it might get stolen or she might not see it there. sigh.

Now, I don't know if she sees it and open it le not. I hope she open le. See le. I really wish to know what is her feeling. But she is not replying me. And I don't have the courage to call her. Scared she don't want answer my phone or treated me coldly if she picks up. I'm just a person who afraid of failure.

Actually, today is I and her together de 10th months. I can't be with her. Can't even talk to her. Sigh. I feel so depressed. Like always, every month de anniversary I would send her a long long massage to show her my appreciation for her love. This month is not an exceptional. I would send her the massage later. I swear. I really miss her. I hope she feels the same way as how I do. sigh. Baby.. Please come back.. My left eye keep twitching. I scared something bad will happen. I hope everything will just go smoothly. And that she will be mine once again.

Got so many movie want come out le. Spiderman 3, At World's End and Shreak 3. All is 3 de. How I wish I can watch with her. I think Spiderman cannot le. Cause by the time the movie might finish screening le. Hope the other 2 can ba. NO! I hope ALL 3 can go watch with her. Hand in hand. Sit couple seat with my arms across her hugging her as we watch. Just like how I used to do.

I know there's no room for regretting. All I can do now. Is do my best to make her come back to me. I will do my best. Do everything I can. To make her feel comfortable. Make her feel touched. Make her come back to me. And make our fairy tale come true...

Happy 10 months anniversary darling..
i love you....