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Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
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The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice. I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces. I ask my subconsciousness... What more? Tears starts to fall, without a trace..



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Sunday, May 27, 2007
".another.painful.day."


Early morning I wake up. Try to fix the front brake of my bike. Can't get it right. 11am. I went set off to Whitesands bike shop to repair my bike. Just 5 minutes after I left my house. I had an accident. I was riding. I admit is fast. Fences on my right. After the fences is a staircase. I can't see what is coming down from there. So I just continue riding. Out of a sudden. A guy came running out. I got no front brakes. And its too late to jam my back brake. Right on. My bike hit him. I almost flew out from my bike but he was in front. So my head hit his head. In he end I never fly. But he flew 1m away. I was so sorry. I pick up my cap. Ask him if he's alright and whether he need any medical attention. He just say he's alright and hurried off. Sigh.. Then I just carry on to repair my bike. After this, my front brake total wrecked. lols.

I reach Whitesands le. The uncle ask me to go for a walk before coming back to pick up my bike. I got nowhere to go. I went to the town park opposite the bike shop. I sat there. I on my mp3. Playing "Would You Be There" by Redwan Ali. I sat there for an hour. That hour I spent by listening to that song over and over again. I don't know why. I start thinking of her. In the end. I cried.. My tears dropped down. I don't know why. I just keep thinking of things that I do with her. I miss those days. Now when I'm typing, I still listen to the song over and over again. Tears want to drop by daddy and mummy beside me. I held back. I still miss her. I still need her. I had accident. I felt nothing. I think of her. I start crying. What's wrong with me? I bwang. I feel pain but it seems like nothing. But think of her. It seems like everything.......