 info Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice.
I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound
Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces.
I ask my subconsciousness... What more?
Tears starts to fall, without a trace..
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Sunday, May 20, 2007
".confused." You said. That the feelings have gone cold. A while later you say that you don't want the life in the past back. The life where we always quarrel. So what is the main reason? Quarrel? or feelings? I don't understand why are you keep running away from all your feelings. Everytime I say something. You would ask me to stop it. What does it mean? Mean that you still will feel something? The feelings are still there? Its just like you just don't want to face the facts. Any problems, why can't we face it together? Going on this way. Its painful for both. No matter what you say. I know your feelings are still there. Even if its has turned cold. The love the feelings is still there. I don't dare to say I know you a lot. But at least for this. I know very clearly in my heart. Happy times and sad times. We had BOTH in the past. Quarrels. Compared to sec 4 de shi hou. Its way lesser. But why we can survive it but now you can't? Why? Like I told you. If you want a rainbow. You got to put up with the rain. Seriously I don't know what in your mind are you thinking. What are your feelings are right now. I wish to know. I wish to untie the knot in your heart. And I need you to untie mine too. Come on. We can do this together all over again. Its just a matter or want or don't want. You don't have the courage? I give you all of mine. Then you will be confident. Will have the courage to love me again. And don't just think your way and what you want. Think from another perspective also! What you're doing is NOT FAIR to me! Stop hidding all your feelings! WHAT IS THE POINT OF HIDDING? Remember the happy times we had.. THINK ABOUT IT. *Silently... I walk away crying alone....* The doggy that I gave to you. I hope you're still hugging him when you sleep at night. You don't want me anymore. Does not mean you have to abandon the boyboy doggy also. He's innocent. I know you won't let me be the one lying beside you hugging you and patting you to sleep. Let the doggy represent me to do so. And don't throw him down the bed in the middle of the night. Its painful and will hurt him. Just like how you hurt me when you leave me. I hope it still does make you think of me. Try asking him whether he miss his male owner. I'm sure he would say yes. Same thing goes for me. girlgirl doggy still lying on my bed every night. She misses you too. And she want to be reunited with her two owner and her boyboy doggy. You and Me, and our boyboy doggy and girlgirl doggy. To others who read this. Rest assure. I'm not mad or crazy. I'm normal. |