After all that I did. In the end she still left me. There's nothing I can say now. Just fuck it. The old Lim Guan Hui Jeff is dead. I won't say how fuck up I'm am living in my life here. I won't say a single shit. I will just keep all my fucking feelings inside my bloody heart. I waited aimlessly at her block downstairs since 10am this morning. I never go school. Just hoping for a chance to talk everything out solve all the problems. I waited a whole 11 hours. In the end nothing else matters. I don't know what to say. But I know very clearly that I will never be happy again. I won't find my happiness again. Just fuck the life I'm having now. Call me a loser I don't care. Anyway I have nothing left.

Loving her wholeheartedly is what I did. But losing her with my everything is what I end up in.

FUCK YOU LIM GUAN HUI JEFF! JUST FUCK YOU FOR BEING AN IDIOT AND MAKE YOUR OWN LIFE MISERABLE LIKE NOW! ITS YOUR OWN FAULT THAT CAUSED YOU TO LOSE HER! BLAME NO ONE EXCEPT YOURSELF YOU IDIOTIC ASS! CRY OVER IT! WHINE OVER IT! YOU'RE JUST A LOSER WHO SCARED TO FAIL. GET A FUCKING LIFE YOU MOFO!

Actually I say all these, I'm not at all happy. I just need a place and someone whom I can confine to. But she left me. I am left with nothing. I need her badly, but I know she won't come back to me anymore. I did what I can. But in the end.

"One Last Cry"

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry

Cry.....

I was here
You were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time
Stop living a lie

I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on
And on ....
And on ....

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time
Been living a lie

I guess I'm down,
I guess I'm down,
I guess I'm down...
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...

Goodbye Lim Guan Hui Jeff. Goodbye.

I love you.. But I know you won't give me a chance to love you again. Sorry..