 info Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice.
I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound
Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces.
I ask my subconsciousness... What more?
Tears starts to fall, without a trace..
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Wednesday, May 30, 2007
".torture." Living seems like a torture. Everyday I just do many many things. Keep myself occupied. Even lesson ends at 5:30pm. Reach home 6 plus. Eat le. Then still cycle to gym. I think I would of everyday cycle to gym. Keep myself occupied. I feel tired. Very tired. In school, lesson de shi hou. Gen ben mei you jing sheng to do anything. Just feel like lying on the table and sleep. Eyes also want close want close. Like a living zombie. Cycle home just now de shi hou. See a lot of soldiers. Tomorrow holiday then pass out. Then I think of the time. When I ask her, whether will she wait for me every weekend when I pass out next time I go army. I remember her saying. Yes. She would every week be there wait for me. But now ne? Breaking down...... |