I couldn't help it but got up from my bed and on the computer to see if she leaves any massage her not. sigh. She didn't. I really hope that she is actually reading my blog. Everytime see her online. My heart is so broken. See her nick don't have my name le. It seems to be that I got no chance anymore. Display picture also change le. Nickname, seems to mean that she don't love me no more. I don't know what should I do. I'm going crazy and I can't rest in peace. I really can't lose her. Please. God.. Let me have her back.. I'm still feeling very awful. My face so palm. I really wish I have the universal remote control. Then can fast forward to 31 May 2007. Pass through all these pain and suffering I'm going through. Then if her answer is to leave me, then just press fast forward again until the moment when I leave this world. Then I won't have to regret for my entire life. Crying.. Living in a meaningless world. Nothing else seems to matter.

I am only thinking of you, hoping you were thinking of me.

Please don't ever let me go..

我很想你。。