I don't know why. Why I would think about her. Think of her. Think of the past. Why? Why at this point of time I am still thinking about all these? Aren't I supposed to be carrying on with my own life? From complete strangers. Who doesn't talk before at all. Out of nowhere become lovers. For 3 years and 10 months. In the end. Strangers is what we are again. Yes. Its me. I choose this path. I have no regrets. Cause I don't want to be hurt. Over and over again. Its enough. Its deep enough. I thought that I have completely healed myself. But the fact is. I have. But not completely.. Why? I don't know myself. I don't know how I feel myself. I feel unsure. I feel insecure. I feel hurt.

Why she can just be happy with what it is now. After 3 freaking plus years. What about me? Why some can live and let go. But not me? Why? Why am I emo-ing again?? WHY?? I HATE THIS!! GIVE BACK NOW MY HEART YOU'RE STEALING!! Give me back my heart. Please!!

Why am I the one who loves you so deeply? Why am I always the one who is hurt. Why the one who don't bear to leave is forever me? Why?? Wo ke wang you yi ge jian bang. Neng rang wo yi kao. Will my heart ever heal? Is there anyone who can stop my tears?


"藉口"

翻着我们的照片
想念若隐若现
去年的冬天
我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸
对着我说再见
来不及听见
你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头
我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我

就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头
我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛
是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走
请你记得我

如果难过
请你忘了我