 info Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice.
I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound
Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces.
I ask my subconsciousness... What more?
Tears starts to fall, without a trace..
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Sunday, June 03, 2007
since i meant nth to u. all the things that we've done. r all juz worthless to u. from today onwards. dun have to be guilty abt anythin. treat it that nth happened at all in e past 3 yrs n 10mths. treat it as i have nv ever came into ur life. u dun have to care abt anythin. how i bcome. it doesnt matter. wat i do. i will bear full responsibility. yes. u hurt me very deep. but dun have to be guilty. cuz one day. u will feel urself so stupid to love me once. to feel guilty. yes. can say i not gentleman. cuz i cant bear e pain that u cast on me! take care of urself. i wont msg nor email u anymore. be clear that e one who left. is u. not me. i know u can be happy. i know very soon or maybe even now, there will be someone beside u. dun worry. soon u will not feel anythin nor think abt things that we did before. i would of follow u. del blog. u dun have to ask anyone abt me. go ur way. n i'll go mine. thats wat u wanted! i'm givin u now. i know without me. u will be even happier. when i wan to cry. i would find a corner n cry silently. think thats wat i am doin now at this very second. i've let my hands go. i held on by lettin go. u can go be wat u wan. do wat u wan. which u wanted. live ur life. cuz wateva u said in e email. n wat u did to me. doesn't link at all. thank u for hurtin me over n over again. make me cry over n over again. go ba. the last thing that i can do. is let u go. xiang hui dao guo qu.. shi zhe bao ni zai huai li. xiang dai ni kan zhe shi jie. xiang zai ni meng de hua mian. zhi yao kao zai yi qi jiu neng gan jue tian mi. xiang hui dao guo qu. shi zhe rang gu shi ji shu. zhi shao bu zai rang ni li wo er qu. xiang hui dao guo qu. i know its impossible. i know wat i get will be a god damn sorry which i dun wanna hear. u will be good. u will be fine. u will have someone who loves u. take care for e last time. xie xie ni. goodbye little girl. goodbye. u dun have to reply. cuz i dun mean a thing to u at all. goodbye my little girl.. i know u would not even drop a single tear for me after u read this. dun worry. someone will replace everythin about me. everythin that we did. while i will be the one still foolishly hangin on to e past. cryin over u. thinkin about u. missin u. lovin u. forget the existance of me because it doesn't matter to u to ur heart at all. go enjoy ur life without me. after all. it doesn't hurts u at all to let go of me. smile little girl. be happy. i love you.. goodbye.. |