 info Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice.
I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound
Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces.
I ask my subconsciousness... What more?
Tears starts to fall, without a trace..
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Sunday, June 03, 2007
".one.month.later." One month later de today. Is my 18th birthday.. I know, I would of spend it alone again this year. Last year de birthday. I was alone at home. I guess it would of be the same this year. sigh. I wish that day does not come. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be lonely. I don't want to spend it without her. But......... She said she would organise a chalet for me de. sigh. Actually I want nothing from her. I'm just as happy with her by my side. Loving me. Spending it with me. I guess. Yes.. In my dreams.. Its been don't know how many many years. Since I have a cake for my birthday. Have some candles to blow. Have a wish to make. Have some people to sing birthday song for me. sigh.. Can I die before that day comes? So that I won't be so so sad? *Crying deep inside* If not is the day before. Drink many many many many cans of Tiger Beer. Until I sleep for 24 hours. Skip 3rd of July. But die better. Sigh.. I feel so sad. So so sad. 爱一个人好难。。 我渴望 有个人爱我 在世上 某个角落 飞跃过 黑夜的尽头 来抚平所有伤痛 每一天 对口是我 她心中 有同样的梦 带着我 长相厮守 共渡白头 "祝我生日快乐" 我知道伤不能改变什么 那么让我诚实一点 诚实 难免有不能控制的宣泄 只有关上了门不必理谁 一个人坐在空的包厢里面 手机让它休息一夜那 上千个切掉回忆的画面 眼泪不能流过十二点 生日快乐我对自己说 蜡烛点了寂寞亮了 生日快乐泪也融了 我要谢谢你给的 你拿走的一切 还爱你的一点恨 还要时间才能平衡 热恋伤痕画面重生 祝我生日 生日快乐 一个人坐在空的包厢里 面手机让它休息一夜 那上千个切掉回忆的画面 眼泪不能流过十二点 生日快乐我对自己说 蜡烛点了寂寞亮了 生日快乐泪也融了 我要谢谢你给的 你拿走的一切 还爱你的一点恨 还要时间才能平衡 热恋伤痕画面重生 祝我生日快乐 还爱你的一点恨 还要时间才能平衡 热恋伤痕画面重生 祝我生日快乐 |