Today is really really very tiring. Me alone take care of the whole drink column. From morning 6:30 plus am work until noon. I is ki siao liaoz. Carry so many boxes of water. Think I bao over 30 boxes of drinks ba. All push from backyard to stupid column 13 (Drinks column). Then open then put onto shelve. For 5 freaking hours never sit down never rest never drink water. =.=" Keep walking around standing arranging climb up and down. Tomorrow working night de. boohoohoo~!! Tired le rah~ Then the auntiesssss over there. A while tell me cannot do this a while tell me must do that if not what what what. Wa piang. I only got 2 legs 2 hands one head one body. How to do so many things at once. =.="

I think they think is ish superman.

I don't know why. I end up chatting with her through sms. Out of the blue. Strange things happen. While sms-ing. Tears want drop want drop. Or rather is got drop. Just that I wipe away and keep trying to hold them back. Talking to her. Makes me think so much about the past. Like a HOPE. But I know its just an empty HOPE. Results will never be what I've always wanted.

I would still choose to walk away.. I know. If there's a day when she found someone else. I would completely delete her from all my records. I won't even contact her. That's when I would completely step out of her life. As a stranger. Yes.

She asked me whether we can be friends. I hate this question. I hate her always when she ask thing questions. Whats up with this man. Is having this status so fucking important that she have to always put it by her mouth? I told her. I don't wanna be friends nor I wanna be strangers. Then lets just remain as it is. Status unknown. Not friend nor stranger.

I wish I can just ignore her completely and live my own life. Its like. A freaking knot in my heart. I hate this feeling. Can't she just untie this knot in my heart instead of tying more and more knots in my heart?

No wonder I like slipKNOT? zzz!