Today is my 18th birthday. But it just seems like a normal day. Reached home at around 2340 just now. Came back from work. Alighted at West Plaza. lols~ Went 7-11 bought one loaf of bread and 2 cans of chilli tuna. Yum yum~ Then reach home. Bathe liaoz. Sit in front of tv watch the channel 8 7pm and 9pm show. And a little of CSS2. Asked daddy helped me record one.

Then sit there watch then eat the tuna with bread. Total eat 1 can of tuna with 8 slices of bread. Now is so full. Then after that eat durian. Yum yum yum~ A while more going take melon milk and drink. omg~! I'm gonna grow fat.!

Guess what. I actually asked her for a reconciliation. Or rather. Start all over again. She did not reply. Just as expected. I don't think she will give me another chance. To love her.. Again.. Last time a friend asked me. "Do you prefer to love or be loved?" I would say be loved. Now. I beg to differ. I would say I prefer to be able to love the one I love.

I realise many things. Since she left me. Maybe.. Its fated. That my every year's birthday. There will always be the absence of her. Last year's the same. 2 years back is the same. No doubt. On my 18th birthday. Its the same....

Happy Birthday Jeff....