Sometimes, I would rather people don't give a shit about me. And let me be on my own. Cause I wanna be strong. But no matter how strong I put in front, its never that way deep down. I won't blame anyone. Not even Lin Feng. Human are curious. And facts are cruel. And Jeff is crucified.

I never shed a single tears. I held back. Cause I won't say I'm waiting, but I'm wishing. Wish is just a wish. I want a harbor. A place where I can hide under. Break down under. Being treated under.

My buddy asked me, I must be like hating her and disliking her rights? yeah. I hate her to the core. Because I love her too deeply. I thought I could be strong. But its turns out to be shit. I felt sorry. That I've let myself down. Its okie. I'm fine. Today is a "rainy" day. But tomorrow is just another brand new day.

If I have to. I would set myself free and cry. But I said to a few people. That I never wanted to shed a single tears for her. Not anymore. I'm sure all you guys just wanna see a happy Jeff? And not how I used to be in the past. My buddy said that I've really grown up through all these compared to the past. I'm glad. That I really did. Assured.

For now. Let me take a break. Before I could continue with my studies.