 info Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice.
I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound
Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces.
I ask my subconsciousness... What more?
Tears starts to fall, without a trace..
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Sunday, November 04, 2007
".first.cut.is.the.deepest." hmm.Went her friend chalet. Then never really do anything. Just sit there only. But, after that we went to Changi Beach. Seeing aeroplane flying above us in the middle of the night. Like, 2am~ And the rain is falling~ Here we are~ Nono... NO rain, not sing song also. lols. Okay then we stood there. I told her this is the first time we spend the night outside together. I don't know what else I should say. But words just can't express how I feel and how much I love her. With lots and lots of stars hanging up in the sky. Everything's just seems like a fairy tale. Everything's just so wonderful. Everything's just so perfect. Just like a dream. If I'm granted with a wish, I would wish for the time to stop. So that that feeling would never get off me. And I would say its a moment I felt myself being so fortunate. I think I'm having tang niao bing. Cause it's just too sweet. 3 plus went back to chalet. She wanted to eat cup noodle. So we went cheers and get ourselves a cup. Then sit at the chalet there eat. Know that she's tired from the look in her eyes. Regretting to meet her so early, not giving her more time to rest. Tried to make her sleep on my shoulder but the chalet bbq pit de seats just isn't comfortable enough. In the end she wanted to go park for a walk to keep herself awake. But instead of keeping herself awake. She lie on my shoulder while walking, with her eyes shut. =.=! Then no choice lahs. Need to send her home asap. Gotta get her to rest. So, walked to pasir ris interchange. Sat down. Then she sleep on my shoulder until got bus lo. Then send her home. She's like sleeping throughout the whole journey. While I have to keep myself awake in case we missed the stop. But it's okay. As long as she's fine. After all we both had a long day... Send myself home after that. Kinda like fell asleep on the bus. After that I was like thinking. "Did I snore or anything?". Later I pai say lo. lols. Then go home slept all the way until 2+. One word. Shiok.! hahas. Then stayed at home rest lo. Wanted to go queensway buy something. But let her rest lahs. =) Now I just feel like eating. lols. =) Seriously, sometimes, I wish to know how exactly she feels. About us, about everything, about you, about me. Just everything picture that contain either one of us. Everything. Probably in short, a heart to heart talk. Looking at her, I asked myself, "hey, why do I love this girl?".. I couldn't find an answer. But I told myself. I never ever regretted... |