![]() info Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice.
I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound
Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces.
I ask my subconsciousness... What more?
Tears starts to fall, without a trace..
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
".lonely days." What a boring day. Cause I'm having headache for the whole afternoon. Was pretty left and right and don't know what to do. Then Ashton came over to our place in the evening. But he was sleeping. So my mother and I just quickly had our dinner before he wake up and turn the house upside down. Was watching tv halfway and the water boiled. Its the sound of the kettle that woke Ashton up. Went to off it then walk back to him, thats when his head was up with his eyes wide open looking at me. He paused for a few second behind dropping his head back onto the mattress. I thought he went back to sleep but I went around and look at him. Both his eyes were wide open. Then he caught me look at me so he carry his head up again to look at me. Well, that's when he started whinning. Bo pian, carry him to my mother then in the end is I carry while my mother feed him with porridge. He's too heavy lahs. So I just left him on the mattress with him leaning onto my stomach. Feed finish then I is can't be bothered already. Having headache that's why. But in the end my mother also bth. Then I carry a while more before he vomited on me. Oh noes.. *headache* After that he keep crying. So my mother brought him downstairs for a walk. Then come back is help him pompom. Again is I carry then my mother wash him up. Seriously, he's very heavy. Some more he keeps figeting. Makes it more tiring. Bathed already then wear clothes and everything then my mother put him to sleep already. Like, finally? By then he fell asleep my father is also back home liaos. It was 10 plus when my parents left to go sister's house. And from there they will be going to genting with my sister, brother-in-law and Ashton. Back on Friday. Well. Lonely days ahead. |