 info Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice.
I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound
Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces.
I ask my subconsciousness... What more?
Tears starts to fall, without a trace..
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Friday, August 08, 2008
".Marksman (Week 5)." Day 21: Yawns.. It's another brand new week ahead. While this week is range week. Hahaha. Morning inspection after flag raising. Then whole squad kena fuck by instructor. Don't know what's wrong lahs. lol.. After that is breakfast and it's the start of our range week... First day only.. Relax.. Go there for briefing and everything for 3 hours until lunch. Then after lunch went back for yet some other briefings before we are allowed to go at 4+ 5. Damn early sia. First time so early can relax.. Go back bunk sleep until 6 then go for dinner after that is end of the day already... Day 22: Fast ah. Tuesday already. Today's our second IPPT. I never take as I'm freaking sick. My fever still was up and down. I wanted to go ahead with it, but instead I don't wanna force myself moreover it's a sure fail. So why bother? So I just go easy relax sit down one corner and wait for my squad to finish with the test. After that is range from 9 to 12. That's when we have to pass our WHT, weapon handling test before we can proceed for our live firing. But it isn't anything difficult lahs. Just some basic commands and stuff and we're good to go. Hmm Hmm.. After lunch.. It's the real start of our live firing.. Frame one for today.. 35 rounds.. Quite excited. I wasn't really scared but instead a little nervous. Since this is the first time I'm firing a pistol. I'm the last batch as according to register number. Went in, quite blur cock here and there before starting to shoot. For my batch. I was the first one that open fire. Or rather I'm the first to pull the trigger lahs. The first feeling after pulling the trigger sucks.. Honestly, Í don't know how to explain that feeling. It's like there's a ghost within you that makes you fear of pulling the trigger. The first time I shot with a real revolver. The first time I felt what is a real recoil. The first time I really realise how powerful a little revolver like this can be... Well.. Total 35 rounds 70 points. My result was 30 IN 3 OUT. IN is the region with 2 points per shot and OUT with 1 points per shot. So I miss 2 bullets. Total 63 points. Marksman. Day 23: It's drill lesson this morning. I think drill is the lesson most of us hate. Cause of the new instructor being more hostile towards us compared to our previous instructor. But still, today drill was quite a smooth one, as our instructor never really fuck us upside down. Probaby because we're having live firing, so he scared later we cannot take it then shoot him or shoot ourselves. lol.. Breakfast and range again... We did our frame 2 in the morning.. 35 rounds. My result was 24 IN 7 OUT total 55 points out of 70. I don't know is Marksman or 1st class. But doesn't matter. Cause what matters this time rounds is I don't feel uneasy any longer. Rather I can actually shoot until very relax.. That's a good thing.. It's like after first round.. I'm totally used to firing the revolver. Surprising eh... After lunch was frame 3. I did very badly for this frame. Or rather I fail lahs. Mainly cause I anyhow whack the crap out of the revolver.. Plus one part of the shooting is night shooting.. So have to shoot in the dark. Don't know what exactly went wrong with this frame lahs. But guess I just couldn't be bothered. lol.. Result was 10 IN 7 OUT 37 points out of 110. 55 rounds of bullets for this frame. Very jia lad eh. Fail. lol. Then never mind. We're called back for make up PDT training after dinner at 715. Everyone was reluntant to attend. But no choice... Went for the lesson.. The whole lesson was chop chop. We just did our forward and backward fall. Today lesson was quite fun lahs honestly. Quite enjoyable and can see many stupid things going about. With people rolling to the side instead of front.. Day 24: Thursday. Frame 4 in the morning and 5 in the afternoon. Frame 4 was crap. Cause my revolver laser was faulty. So I was shooting with only my iron sight throughout the whole frame. Which was rather an disadvantage especially during night firing.. My result was 37 IN 7 OUT 85 points out of 120. 60 rounds for 4th frame. Think I got 2nd class for this. While 5th frame. 43 IN 10 OUT 96 points out of 110. 55 rounds for this frame. Marksman. As the more we shoot, I don't the more comfortable we get. While this is the last frame before our final range test. After range the weather was very very nice. Very dark. I suppose it was the time it rained damn heavily back here in the East. Went back to bunk at 4 plus and slack. Then I was playing my iPod through my friend speaker with this particular song. One of my favourite.. And I was like keep singing that song after that. Together with my malay bunk mates. Guess we really love the song. Even when I'm bathing I was there screaming the song.. Until my buddy ask me STFU.. -___- But after that he fell in love with the song also eh, still ask me send him. WTH.. Means my singing good lah? Is it? lol.. Day 25: PT > Final Range Test > Home Haha. Finally.. Its our last frame. Which is also the frame that would determine our ranking. I wasn't really feeling nervous in the first place. However my friend keep down there jeff here jeff there.. Ask me how here how there. Cause he fail 2 frames previously. So damn nervous then make me until very nervous also.. As always, I and him always the last batch to enter. This time round the range is very different. It's a 100m range, the moment we enter the range I was like, wtf? Must walk so far just to shoot some shit.. Total of 60 rounds. First 10 rounds is for us to warm up so it doesnt count to the final score. I was really taking my own sweet time to aim and test my gun. Didn't miss any during the warm up, all 10 holes were found on the target. Was damn happy la seriously.. Then start the basic shooting.. I got 36 points.. Qualified for Marksman... Then buttleflies starts to fly in my stomach. For realistic shooting, I was doing fine at first. Until middle I started to shake my head already. Thought I would get 1st class only. In the end the target come back.. I got 52 points.. And thus final score. I got MARKSMAN!! After that 12 plus can go home already. Cause tomorrow national day. Haha. Nice eh.. This week so relax and friday still can go home so early. While my papa came to fetch me. So I left camp at 1245 and reached home at 1315. Awww.. And if anyone is interested ah. This is the song I've been screaming since then. Tsktsk.. T_T |