![]() info Jeff Lim ; 3rd July
The feeling that I'm aware, is more helplessness than cowardice.
I peel off my frail consciousness slowly, so my footsteps won't make a sound
Becoming ashes, scattering into tiny pieces.
I ask my subconsciousness... What more?
Tears starts to fall, without a trace..
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Friday, September 26, 2008
".婆婆." Day 55: (Monday) Today is abnormal. Cause I'm still at home! But then same thing lahs. Still gotta wake up at 5am then prepare myself before leaving house at 545. Then meet my squad mate and go back camp. Reach camp like 730.. Good thing is that no need go for inspection. Hahahas. Then go back bunk to slack until lesson. Today no lesson also. Got external course on communication skills. Damn boring. From 9 to 5. Imagine how dry it can be... Then at night got PDT.. To finish our PDT test but couldn't finish.. So the remaining test have to bring forward to wednesday. Which sucks... Day 56: Morning same thing. Mass drill... Then go for the communication skills then end of day. Day 57: Mass drill.. Then class.. Then afternoon is our SBT test. Scenerio Based Test.. 4 officer one team and assess real life situation... Then anyhow whack lahs. But fucked up lahs. My partner, he knows nothing. Everything I tell him what to do what to do. Bloody fucker. He don't want pass his tai ji don't drag us in. He still dare to say he never study.. Like wtf.. If without us. Confirm he can kiss his SBT goodbye. Bloody fucker. But one thing about the test is that I not nervous at all.. Is only not sure what to tell the tester only... The rest is like... Chey~ lol. Then at night PDT. I'm fucking pissed by the PDT instructor. he fucking judge me by my look. Fucking shit! See my face then think I ah beng ah beng confirm chao keng kind. Then come and doubt me when I say I only miss 2 lesson. Cause miss 3 or more cannot take test. Like wtf. Then of cause I stand up and say I only miss 2 lesson. "you sure a not!? you only miss two" then he ask me go up and see he check the list. Then he counted 2. And he bo way kong. Mouth stuck with his own dick. ma de.. That time I 7 days of light duty I miss 2 lesson then went for the lesson already lorz. 7 days I only used 2 days. Then mc i only got 2 days cause I fever. Fuck! Say until like I'm a chao kenger. NNB. Cock! Then go back bunk few of my bunk mate sit there and start grumbling about the instructor. Like fuck man. Say until damn dulan. Can't even sleep. $!@#*!@& Then at night all of us prank again. 8 of us in the bunk.. Always aim the stupid bamboo in our squad. The skinny until like bamboo one. He also cock one. Then this time we always succeed. All of us carry his bed and put it in the middle of the room. This time best, we shifted until 2m away from the middle only. Then put down the bed he suddenly wake up. LOL. All chao. Then I went back to my bed then start to make snoring sound.. Like I sleeping like that. looool. Day 58: Thursday Mass Drill > Law > Law Day 59: Today isn't a very good day.. Morning wake up quite happy happy.. Cause today can book out.. But in the end I saw a msg my father sent. I'm totally lost..... My grandpa passed away the night before.... Since then I was very moody and upset.. The whole day was like..... idk... I applied leave for monday... And after book out I went home and change and went down to my ah ma's wake... Then my uncle brought me to see my grandma.... I don't know how I should feel either... Then see my ah gong, like, so poor thing, now left him alone in the house.. Hais.... ~Rest in Peace~ my beloved ah ma.. |