Its been such a long time. Since I have such a feeling. I don't know why I would feel this way. Perhaps like what people says, "first cut is the deepest."

To me, its rather a happy thing. But at the same time it isn't. Perhaps I'm just thinking too far away. And perhaps I wasn't.

Please give me a higher step to step on, and not leave me back at ground zero. I may grumble about many things in life. But its human nature to ask for the better.

I'm not asking for eternity. But at least some hope which I would cherish and seize whatever opportunity that I'm given.

I may not be a good boy, but I think I deserved to be pampered for this once. xP

Dear God....