I don't know. But I think my mother's having too high an expectation of me. Not putting it as I'm unfilial. But this is how it goes, if it's something within my ability, definitely I don't mind whatever you want it to be. But that's not the case. You can't be comparing me with my brother when he's holding a higher status than me. Can't expect me to be doing the same way he does. That's completely out of the way.

Frustrations and stress. Definitely this isn't the only reason that I'm feeling so upset. Lips shut. I tell no one.